Taking control

I think having an online journal is an excellent idea. It's good to pour your heart out instead of stalking him.
Anyways... Last night was a total nightmare. And I mean it, literally. I kept dreaming of him,fighting with him...and when I woke up I was an emotional wreck. I couldn't stop crying. So I decided to get some help online. I mean to get professional help as soon as I settle down (no procrastinating!)
But for now that'll do. I got an interactive self-help book on how to win your ex back..it was kinda pricey (36euros) but ... I mean, 36 euros is NOTHING if I can feel better. Now, I don't know if this is gonna work, but at least I feel more positive. I'll do whatever it takes to win my Cocco back...anything! But as we have no control over other people's feeling, at least I hope to feel better soon, to understand my mistakes and never ever do them again. Actually it's crazy, as I go on reading,